Hi
@futuretrainee! ,
Thank you for being so open about what you’re going through.
First off, you’ve already achieved incredible things: an 81% on your PGDL and making it to the semis of major commercial awareness competitions? That’s something to be so proud of.
This reminds me of Albert Bandura’s “self-efficacy theory” which I was reading about on the train the other day. It’s the idea that the belief in your own ability to succeed plays a massive role in achieving your goals. Bandura talks about how we can build self-efficacy through mastery experiences (like your academic and competition successes), social modelling (seeing others succeed and knowing it’s possible for you too), and resilience/overcoming challenges and setbacks.
The thing is, you’re already doing everything Bandura points to. You’ve had mastery experiences that prove you’re capable. You’re surrounded by this incredible community of people, showing you that there’s a way through. And most importantly, you’re building resilience every time you push forward, even when it feels tough. That resilience is going to carry you further than you realise right now.
It’s so easy to feel like you’re stuck in a loop, but every application, every rejection, and every moment of reflection is adding to your strength and skillset. It’s not a straight line, but it is progress. The system might be competitive, but you’re already proving you have what it takes to stand out, not just in achievements, but in character, grit, and determination.
The holidays can bring up all sorts of emotions, but try to take this time to celebrate you: the version of yourself that keeps showing up, even when it’s hard. You’ve got a fire inside you, and that dream of becoming a lawyer? It’s yours.
You’re not alone in this. Everyone here is rooting for you. Keep believing in yourself, because every step forward is bringing you closer to where you want to be. You’re already doing amazing things, and there’s so much ahead for you.
You’ve got this.