I honestly completely understand where you're coming from. I know its so hard especially after passing the app stage to be rejected after the VI, but I would like to think that with each VI you've completed the more ready you'll feel for the next one.Weil spring VS rejection post-VI (completed in the second week of January). I’m feeling too numb to even cry at this point. I’m very much in the “never passed a VI” camp so I’m not surprised. I think what made my performance worse was all the pressure and lack of self-compassion I was putting myself through in January. Also, I think it is very possible to over-prepare for VIs and so if you have one coming up, I would recommend approaching it as a normal interview instead of rehearsing questions in advance. I got a question that was a slight variation of what I had prepared and instead of staying calm and being confident in my ability to say something on the spot, I just regurgitated my rehearsed answer.
Maybe for your next VI you could use the preparation time that they give at the beginning to compose yourself and focus on what the question is asking. Even if you take a couple of seconds into your actual answer to pause and think, it won't go against you! Keep persevering!