Good evening all!
I hope you're having a great weekend. Like most of you (I suspect), mine has been spent applying for Vac Schemes and sailing through a wealth of emotions: one minute feeling empowered ("we can DO this!") and the next practically sobbing in a corner ("what even is the point? I've got no hope"). Wouldn't a level medium be nice?
So I'm Natasha, live in Berkshire, am 34 (how did that happen?) and have 3 children under 4 so, yes, my weekend has also included a bit of Peppa Pig and playing trains too, as well as the usual cooking, cleaning and laundry. Not normally one for these things as I'm usually far too embarrassed about sharing, I have reached a point where I've concluded I've nothing to lose, so here I am (slightly terrified).
I titled this post 'Introduction with a difference' because I do feel so far removed from what a 'typical' trainee is expected to be. Even though stereotypes are gradually being broken down and more is being done in respect of diversity and inclusion, it still feels like a world dominated by graduates with exceptional academics and, in all honesty, I worry I will never compete. Absolutely, academic results are the clearest way to determine if someone has the aptitude necessary to perform as a top lawyer and mitigating circumstances, I'm sure, are considered. To what extent, though, I wonder?
In summary, my life goes as follows:
Born on the Isle of Wight in 1989 with hip dysplasia that was diagnosed far too late to remedy without surgery. Multiple surgeries before starting school.
Education in under-performing state schools. Originally a high achiever and had it in mind I wanted a career in law from the age of around 6 (no idea why) but being bright resulted in severe bullying so soon established it was best to keep quiet.
Had further hip surgery in my first year of high school and required further surgery, meaning I was on crutches and in a wheelchair for most of my GCSE years. Banned from attending lessons due to the 'safety risks' and received no tuition, also unable to complete any coursework. Made to sit in the Student Support Centre each day surrounded by children experiencing dreadful suffering at home and with behavioural issues. Deepest sympathy for them and did my best to provide support, but that did nothing for my education.
Bullying due to being different naturally continued and was quite unpleasant. Developed anorexia, depression and anxiety.
Left school at 16 with 1 B, 5 Cs and 4 Ds - not great but probably not bad considering.
Went into full time work and eventually left the IOW with my partner. Qualified as a Mortgage Consultant and worked around 60hrs p/w. Decided to do my A Levels from home but again, with limited time, no tuition and no idea that exam technique was a thing, scraped through with BCC. It did the job to get on a distance learning degree course.
Got married, bought a house, went to work and did all the usual life stuff alongside studying for the LLB through Uni of London International Programmes. 100% exam based and again, no tuition so a pretty tough course. Success rates aren't published but a lot drop out. Anyway, started this in 2013 with the intention of completing over four years. Also got a job closer to home handling complaints for a CEO. First year went ok. Second wasn't too bad.
Then the fun really started...
2015 - total hip replacement
2016 - sat my exams but felt a bit iffy. Turns out I had a major infection. Hip needed to be replaced again. 6 months antibiotics, an allergy, anorexia relapse.
2017 - decided to have a year off to recuperate. Moved house and changed jobs instead 😅 Now head of a regulated complaints department in financial svcs.
2018 - booked exams and decided to start a family as was now 29. Discovered we were expecting. Two days later, mother announces terminal cancer diagnosis. Didn't sit exams. Went to work for husband for flexibility.
2019 - had my son in March. Mother died in September. Dealt with all arrangements as I'm an only child. Grandmother then died in November. Only grandchild so more arrangements and naturally, a lot of upset.
2020 - went on a much needed holiday in Feb. Grandfather died 2nd March. More arrangements. Lockdown. Diagnosed with autoimmune disease and ADHD. Daughter born in November.
2021 - inherited family home on IOW. Engaged architect to transform into luxury holiday-let. Adamant I would finish degree. Achieved a 2:1!
2022 - began the renovation of two properties and set up a property development business. Had baby 3. GRADUATED!!!
Phew! So as you can see, things have been a tad bumpy and I worry immensely that this career I've been pursuing my entire life is forever to be a pipe dream. I wish they were just excuses but these events have definitely had an impact.
Despite all this, I'm still hopeful for a US TC. It may well be delusional but I'm still standing in spite of the above and probably more resilient and determined than ever. Could I hack the long hours? Definitely. Would I want to? Without a doubt. Why US? Smaller intake and more responsibility. I may not appear to have the intellect and aptitude required on paper but I've got it in abundance where it matters. I've experience in a variety of professional roles, running departments, managing people, writing policies and implementing processes, report writing and adhering to regulation. I've assisted my husband with M&A work (he's an accountant/FD), due diligence and corporate debt collection, plus set up a business and started project managing renovations while on maternity leave. I've even represented myself in two successful legal disputes.
Hard work doesn't phase me and in every aptitude test I've ever taken I always come out well. I've just had a bit of a rough ride. Almost like I'm running a marathon only, instead of running through London like everyone else, dressed up as a giant teddy, I'm also running backwards, doing hurdles, wearing a blindfold and pirouetting every 100metres. Am I going to win? No chance. Could I have done without all the obstacles? Definitely possible!
I just have to hope someone, somewhere, sees beyond the grades, that they see I'm not a reflection of my certificates but that they are reflective of my circumstances. That, given a chance, I've got what it takes to be one of the most dedicated lawyers around.
Lovely to meet you all. Thank you for reading my story and wishing you all the very best of luck, from the bottom of my heart, in everything you do.
Happy Sunday,
Natasha x
I hope you're having a great weekend. Like most of you (I suspect), mine has been spent applying for Vac Schemes and sailing through a wealth of emotions: one minute feeling empowered ("we can DO this!") and the next practically sobbing in a corner ("what even is the point? I've got no hope"). Wouldn't a level medium be nice?
So I'm Natasha, live in Berkshire, am 34 (how did that happen?) and have 3 children under 4 so, yes, my weekend has also included a bit of Peppa Pig and playing trains too, as well as the usual cooking, cleaning and laundry. Not normally one for these things as I'm usually far too embarrassed about sharing, I have reached a point where I've concluded I've nothing to lose, so here I am (slightly terrified).
I titled this post 'Introduction with a difference' because I do feel so far removed from what a 'typical' trainee is expected to be. Even though stereotypes are gradually being broken down and more is being done in respect of diversity and inclusion, it still feels like a world dominated by graduates with exceptional academics and, in all honesty, I worry I will never compete. Absolutely, academic results are the clearest way to determine if someone has the aptitude necessary to perform as a top lawyer and mitigating circumstances, I'm sure, are considered. To what extent, though, I wonder?
In summary, my life goes as follows:
Born on the Isle of Wight in 1989 with hip dysplasia that was diagnosed far too late to remedy without surgery. Multiple surgeries before starting school.
Education in under-performing state schools. Originally a high achiever and had it in mind I wanted a career in law from the age of around 6 (no idea why) but being bright resulted in severe bullying so soon established it was best to keep quiet.
Had further hip surgery in my first year of high school and required further surgery, meaning I was on crutches and in a wheelchair for most of my GCSE years. Banned from attending lessons due to the 'safety risks' and received no tuition, also unable to complete any coursework. Made to sit in the Student Support Centre each day surrounded by children experiencing dreadful suffering at home and with behavioural issues. Deepest sympathy for them and did my best to provide support, but that did nothing for my education.
Bullying due to being different naturally continued and was quite unpleasant. Developed anorexia, depression and anxiety.
Left school at 16 with 1 B, 5 Cs and 4 Ds - not great but probably not bad considering.
Went into full time work and eventually left the IOW with my partner. Qualified as a Mortgage Consultant and worked around 60hrs p/w. Decided to do my A Levels from home but again, with limited time, no tuition and no idea that exam technique was a thing, scraped through with BCC. It did the job to get on a distance learning degree course.
Got married, bought a house, went to work and did all the usual life stuff alongside studying for the LLB through Uni of London International Programmes. 100% exam based and again, no tuition so a pretty tough course. Success rates aren't published but a lot drop out. Anyway, started this in 2013 with the intention of completing over four years. Also got a job closer to home handling complaints for a CEO. First year went ok. Second wasn't too bad.
Then the fun really started...
2015 - total hip replacement
2016 - sat my exams but felt a bit iffy. Turns out I had a major infection. Hip needed to be replaced again. 6 months antibiotics, an allergy, anorexia relapse.
2017 - decided to have a year off to recuperate. Moved house and changed jobs instead 😅 Now head of a regulated complaints department in financial svcs.
2018 - booked exams and decided to start a family as was now 29. Discovered we were expecting. Two days later, mother announces terminal cancer diagnosis. Didn't sit exams. Went to work for husband for flexibility.
2019 - had my son in March. Mother died in September. Dealt with all arrangements as I'm an only child. Grandmother then died in November. Only grandchild so more arrangements and naturally, a lot of upset.
2020 - went on a much needed holiday in Feb. Grandfather died 2nd March. More arrangements. Lockdown. Diagnosed with autoimmune disease and ADHD. Daughter born in November.
2021 - inherited family home on IOW. Engaged architect to transform into luxury holiday-let. Adamant I would finish degree. Achieved a 2:1!
2022 - began the renovation of two properties and set up a property development business. Had baby 3. GRADUATED!!!
Phew! So as you can see, things have been a tad bumpy and I worry immensely that this career I've been pursuing my entire life is forever to be a pipe dream. I wish they were just excuses but these events have definitely had an impact.
Despite all this, I'm still hopeful for a US TC. It may well be delusional but I'm still standing in spite of the above and probably more resilient and determined than ever. Could I hack the long hours? Definitely. Would I want to? Without a doubt. Why US? Smaller intake and more responsibility. I may not appear to have the intellect and aptitude required on paper but I've got it in abundance where it matters. I've experience in a variety of professional roles, running departments, managing people, writing policies and implementing processes, report writing and adhering to regulation. I've assisted my husband with M&A work (he's an accountant/FD), due diligence and corporate debt collection, plus set up a business and started project managing renovations while on maternity leave. I've even represented myself in two successful legal disputes.
Hard work doesn't phase me and in every aptitude test I've ever taken I always come out well. I've just had a bit of a rough ride. Almost like I'm running a marathon only, instead of running through London like everyone else, dressed up as a giant teddy, I'm also running backwards, doing hurdles, wearing a blindfold and pirouetting every 100metres. Am I going to win? No chance. Could I have done without all the obstacles? Definitely possible!
I just have to hope someone, somewhere, sees beyond the grades, that they see I'm not a reflection of my certificates but that they are reflective of my circumstances. That, given a chance, I've got what it takes to be one of the most dedicated lawyers around.
Lovely to meet you all. Thank you for reading my story and wishing you all the very best of luck, from the bottom of my heart, in everything you do.
Happy Sunday,
Natasha x