My well-being is a continuous rollercoaster and has been for some time.
A combination of a very stressful house move (selling and buying property is so stressful, especially on your own but mine has had various challenges!) and trying to work out what I want to do work-wise longer term has meant at times I am euphoric and then next I am in this massive funk that puts me into a zombie-like situation where all I want to do is hibernate. I haven't got a lot of other stuff to focus on either, and so every little bump in the road seems to have more of an impact than it really should.
What am I doing to tackle this? Well, put honestly, I am allowing myself to feel like this until the house move is sorted. I recognise the situation is a combination of factors, some within my control some not, and ultimately some will be resolved in time. I also recognise this behaviour in me before. I felt like this when I was in my first year of uni when things weren't great but overwhelmingly my negative feelings then were all tied to boredom. But I know I can't go headfirst into the things that will take me out of that boredom until the house move is completed (hopefully in the next 4-6 weeks!!) so I just need to be a little patient (which isn't my strong point).
I also try to remember that I can take time out and actually need to do so for my general well-being long term. Apart from a couple of short periods of time, I have worked hard from the age of 14 and doing so has put me in a strong position to pick things up again when I need to. Although the time out might be contributing to the boredom, I recognise it will probably give me some more energy and focus when I am ready to go full throttle on something again.
Finally, this week I stumbled across some posts on another website that made some disparaging comments about me. This was one of the "bumps in the road" moments where normally I would laugh it off but the comments hit a slightly sensitive nerve at first. However, I reminded myself I don't need to be liked by everyone or have everyone's approval of the things I do or who I am. And particularly when the disparaging comments came from someone who seemed to have little respect for others in general, all of a sudden I was actually quite proud that I wasn't liked by them - I wouldn't want the approval of someone like that.
That incident was a nice reminder though that:
- I used to go by the saying "if you are the most intelligent person in the room, you are in the wrong room". To me now, I would actually replace intelligent with "nice" or "respected" and it would have more meaning to me. It is one of the key reasons I love this place - I am surrounded with people with some better characteristics than I have and because of that they lift me up rather than try to bring me down. I now want to surround myself with more people like this with my work outside of TCLA!
- And also the following quote, which I think can also be applied to the rollercoaster of recruitment processes for VS and TCs.
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