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The level of maturity you have displayed is great. It takes some peoples years and years to realise these things and then they find its too late to change (golden handcuffs ect). This is often the reality of working in American firms/Magic circles. Less brutal from a trainee perspective but from what I have heard from talking to people at firms, it gets way worse when you become an associate in a busy practise area looking to make it on the partnership track. I am glad someone has decided to truthfully post about this. Well done to you and wish you the best with the rest of your applications, sounds like you will be just fine